Little Miss Dreamer

Am totally irritated by this lady from NUS Career Centre.. suppose to work with her on a project.. then she alwayz complain this complain that.. come on.. I think I'm like 10 times more busy than her.. already try to make things as simple as possible for her liao.. still make so much noise... wah piangz.. cannot stand it...

Still haven't book air tix for my aussie trip.. die.. muz make sure I get it done by this week!

posted by XY @ 8:52 PM

Think I'm really getting stressed up by GES.. Had another weird nightmare last nite.. dreamt that I was trapped in this building that's on fire.. No where to run juz stayed there waiting to die.. terrible terrible...

Finally got the password for my letter of appointment from RP.. Confirmed that the pay is quite a fair bit higher than what I am getting.. in fact should be among the highest given my qualification and experience.. other things are just briefly mentioned.. then again it's just the letter of appointment so they won't go into the details.. wonder if I should check with them if there are other benefits...

No matter what I still can't find any reason to turn down the offer.. not when I'm suffering right now.. doing things that I myself do not believe in... =P

posted by XY @ 10:20 PM

My sis brought her bf home today.. Tot the guy was pretty OK.. was more irritated by the fact that my sis kept thinking that we will eat up her bf..

As soon as I sat down at the table with them my sis actually told me to go off and do my own stuff!! Come on I was juz trying to sit ard in case my dad is into his lecturing mood again then I can come in with some relaxing topic... Simply overprotective!! At least let her bf get a chance to impress his future sister-in-law here so I can say a few nice words for him in front of my parents mah.... What's the problem with her???

Arghz... Can't stand it...........

posted by XY @ 9:42 PM

Had this nightmare juz before I woke up.. was crossing the road with my family when suddenly all the cars reversed at a very high speed.. some of them lost control and went spinning ard.. and I almost got knocked down by a jeep..

Weird dream..

Then was lazing on the bed and started thinking of work again.. all the events that I'm supposed to organize seem like they are not going to work out.. feeling shitty..

Shan't think about work til afternoon.. Shall come up with the stupid launch mechanism and the speech pointers for GOH by today..

Think I shall hand in my resignation letter right after GES.. this will give them exactly 1 month notice.. hope will make it in time to head to Aussie on 18 Nov.. then come back by the end of Nov.. and then slack for a few days before I report to RP on 6 Dec.. Hope I'll have enough $ to sustain this no-pay period... =P

posted by XY @ 10:21 AM

Kept thinking that RP will send me the letter of appointment by post.. have been eagerly checking out the letterbox everyday.. then juz saw this email from RP with the letter attached.. but the thing is that you need a password to read the doc and I can only call them for the password during office hour!! Which means I can't read the letter over the weekend even though I've received it!!! Arghz...

Last night's been pretty fruitful.. started off going for happy hour drink with colleagues.. wanted to go New Asia Bar initially but to our horror it was packed by 6.30pm! Then ended up at this bar 1 floor below.. slightly more ex but still get a good view of the city up on the 69th floor.. then wtched Bourne Supremacy was Ann & XQ.. the story was not bad.. juz that we were sitting so close to the screen.. plus lots of the scenes were very jerky.. felt really giddy after that! Nonetheless after spending 10 min to recover at Mac, Ann & I decided to join Naz and friends at Devil's Bar.. which has got an amazingly big dance floor upstairs which you really can't tell from the outside of the bar.. but the prob was that the music isn't that fantastic.. not very nice to dance to.. also didn't really appreciate the DJ who talked alot at all the weird timing.. The guy from Japanese Embassy was there too... quite a nice guy.. juz that I have difficult understanding his very Japanese English... =P

posted by XY @ 1:41 PM

I got the offer from RP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And they are paying me $250 more per month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Got the call from the HR lady juz now.. they are sending me the offer letter soon... gonna be 5-days week.. not sure about the rest of the package though.. shall wait for the letter and see...

Will be starting with the training in Dec.. then start teaching in Jan... Hmm... Maybe can quit my current in late Nov.. take a break.. and fly to Australia to visit SK before I start on my new job..

Hurray!!!!!!!!!!

posted by XY @ 2:51 PM

Finally got down to watch the movie "Bridget Jones' Dairy" which's been sitting on my comp's D drives for years.. pretty nice show.. but still prefer the book itself.. the movie is more funny.. but it is the book that really capture what it is to be a songle woman in this world today.. having to deal with commitment phobic men and the smug married/attached ppl...

Can't help it but to feel sorry to myself.. am somewhat on the same boat as Bridget.. zero love life.. and everyday juz getting by with my job.. blah blah blah..

Didn't go out the entire weekend.. juz stoned at home and read books and watch video.. which is really not very good.. but on the other hand when nothing is going right in your life u feel safer at home than anywhere else.. who knows what if u go out and more unlucky things come your way??

posted by XY @ 5:45 PM

Think I screwed up the interview at RP yesterday.. the folks there kept pin-pointing at the fact that I've been in my current job for only 3 months.. even though I told them that my application to RP was made even before I got the job.. arghz.. and then apparently they know my boss.. muz have been from his tif venture days.. but heard that he wasn't vey well liked by the ppl there.. so perhaps they might juz pity me and hire me.. anyway shall wait for their reply and see how..

Anyway at work everything is gearing up towards GES.. there's this madness of trying to squeeze everything into that week.. I'm organizing 3 events within that week.. that's not including helping out for other events.... sighz... worked til 11pm today.. had lunch and dinner in office too... so practically never step out of office (apart from the meeting room level) for 14 hours!! Madness!!

Shall go and sleep liaoz... Zzz..

posted by XY @ 1:02 AM

Was looking through RP's website again.. I'm beginning to be more convinced that I'll have a better life there than where I am now.. which means I'd better perform well for the interview this Wed.. this will be the final round of interview.. will be meeting the deputy principal and the programme manager whom I've met at the 1st round.. really really hope that I can make it.. and get to do something meaningful in life.. rather than alwayz trying to make sure that cunning businessmen out there do not abuse incentive schemes.. or facing entrepreneurs who had failed and come back for help... which gets depressing almost all the time..

To pass this interview is about the ONLY thing I'm hoping for right now.. I mean, now that I don't really have a love life/social life, I hope I can at least do something I enjoy at work..

I hope this is not too much to ask for...

posted by XY @ 6:42 PM

I don't understand...

Why am I feeling so miserable about my job?? Is it the problem with the work itself?? Or is there anything wrong with myself??

Perhaps I'm just not capable enough.. perhaps I'm just not up to it.. perhaps I'm just not suitable for the job.. I really don't know.. but all I know is that I'm unhappy for the longest time..

Just wanna get out of this whole mess..

posted by XY @ 3:34 PM

These days I am hearing more complaints about work than ever... Everyone is getting very stressed up becoz:

(1) Global Entrepolis is on in 4 weeks' time
(2) Our investee companies are beginning to give us all sort of problems
(3) New big boss is very niao

Everyone's morale is so darn low... and I'm developing this chronic backache... think my back will break one of these days...

posted by XY @ 8:52 PM

I'm going to boycott Attica.. After having to queue for close to an hour and not being able to go in.. when somehow they are juz letting the other ang mos cut queue and go in.. waste my precious time on a Friday night.. In the end my colleagues and I went to Brewerkz which is opposite.. had some beer which is not enough to get high.. played boliao games.. should have juz join LW at dbl-o..

Anyway had lunch with Louise today.. she's been posted to the uob branch at where she stays.. lucky girl.. realize that she earning so much more than me yet leading such an easy life.. beginning to wonder what am I doing here?? overworked and underpaid... sighz...

posted by XY @ 2:40 AM