Little Miss Dreamer

Juz went to EDB to sign 2 years of my life away as Senior Officer.. they say it's not exactly contract but everyone in the board gotta go thru 2 years b4 confirmation.. even the scholars.. and 99% of the chance I'll be confirmed, unless I make a huge mistake in the course of the 2 years..

Anyway they are not going to increase my pay given my 1st class honours.. then again I still went ahead to sign the contract.. think it's a job that I want and I'll like it there.. Moreover the benefit package is not bad.. the boss is a nice guy.. the location is convenient.. Can't really ask for more... =P

Was told that for the 1st 2 weeks I'll not be working... will be going thru orientation, courses and a camp thingie.. abit kua1 zhang1.. hope it's gonna be fun... ^^

posted by XY @ 6:42 PM

I can't believe this.. I only got 1 A this semester.. for my thesis.. yet I managed to get my 1st class honours.. If it's not God's grace I don't know what it is..

*Still in shock/surprise/awe*

posted by XY @ 9:35 AM

It's the R-day tmr... or rather, today.. the last one.. LW read this: Good luck to U too ^^

Anyway was juz thinking abt this after reading LW's blog... Wonder why I still get bothered by ppl that r OUT of my life..

Had a tiff with B online this morning.. it's amazing how we can still quarrel now that he's thousands of miles away.. but anyway, I've come to the conclusion that when other ppl don't bother, there's nothing much u can bother abt..

Tired.. been out the whole day.. left church like 10.45pm and reached home after midnight.. Yet I can't sleep.. my brain is running wild with thoughts... I wish there's an "off" button so I can juz switch it off and sleep...

posted by XY @ 12:43 AM

Spent the ENTIRE day at Sentosa.. went to help out at the Extreme Sports event there.. feeling super tired now... XP

Program for the day:

8am - Reached Palawan Beach at 8am only to realise that the meeting time we got is wrong.. no sign of human activity on the beach.. only saw a handful of peacocks taking their morning stroll..

8.10am - After calling all the leaders in the zone and failed to get any of them, we decided to walk to the Ferry terminal to take breakfast at BK.. on the way got a shock from a peacock... didn't know that the noise peacocks make actually sounds like someone screaming "Help"..

8.20am - Reached BK but it's not open yet.. started rotting outside and discussing what we could do to kill time.. Meanwhile got another shock by the cats loitering outside BK..

9am - BK finally opened!! Had breakfast.. Meanwhile heard news that helpers for the event only need to report b4 3pm!!

9.45am - Three of us came to the conclusion that we could get out of the island to go for cheap lunchtime KTV b4 heading back for the event at 3pm... Juz as we were abt to leave, GR returned our call to confirm that meeting time is actually 12noon.. so KTV was out... then we decided to take a joy ride on the monorail...

10.15am - Managed to got onto the monorail with this bunch of noisy kids on school excursion.. We all started praying at our kids in future won't be as rowdy and noisy as them.. Great time of chit chat and sunblock applying on the monorail..

10.50am - Finished one whole round around Sentosa on Monorail.. We then decided to take another 3/4 round to go to Palawan Beach.. Meanwhile continue chatting away on the monorail..

11.20am - We are back in Palawan Beach again!! Sit around and rot til it's reporting time..

12noon - Report for duty for Extreme Sports.. only to realise that there's nothing much to do for the moment... continue rotting...

2.20pm - Things slowly get more organised and three of us were finally allocated duty with the Medics..

2.40pm - Different parties "fighting" for manpower!! I was reallocated to be stationed at one of the checkpoint for the race.. Which is super far off from the rest.. the group of us there started entertaining one another and looking at the models doing photo shoots in bikinis nearby...

3pm - Action started!! Saw Kenny and Vincent in the 1st wave.. Busy making sure runners take their checkpoint tags and drink water and run in the correct direction.. and this continued for 12 waves of participants...

6.40pm - Last participants ran to our station and reported leg cramp.. Bro Darren drove the van over and pick him up.. we all squeezed onto the van to head back to the central commanding post.. Shou1 gong!!

6.50pm - Packed up everything to get out of the island with JY, June, Kenny and Vin.. Long queue for buses... =P

7.30pm - Had dinner at the hawker centre at Harbourfront bus interchange.. nice food... or maybe it was becoz I was hungry..

8.30pm - Home sweet home.. legs feeling super tired from standing up the whole afternoon..

*Yawn* Shall sleep early.. Tmr is gonna be another busy day...

posted by XY @ 9:57 PM

I AM OFFERED BY EDB!!!! PTL!!!!!!!!!!

Got a call from them like 15 minutes after the interview with the Managing Director.. Woah! They are REALLY efficient!! The terms of offer are pretty good... will be going down on Monday to sign the contract and will be starting work on 7 June.. Then I can go for Youth Conference next week!!! Yay!!!

Once again God shows how as we put Him 1st He'll provide the best!! =)

posted by XY @ 5:40 PM

Went out with LW and Shu in the afternoon... haven't been to town for ages!! Did a little shopping... bulk of the time was spent having tea and catching up at Ya Kun.. Me and Shu complaining about the agony of job interviews.. Shu and LW complaining abt evil ppl in hostel.. LW and I yakking abt every other thing..

Really treasure the time we have in town today.. coz in a little while longer we'll not have the luxury to go downtown on a weekday afternoon..

Well well well... but it's still something to look forward to.. the fruit of studying for sooo many years.. time for a change yah??

Went for CG at nite.. things are getting better.. CG ppl more united and fervent for God! Not forgetting the usual supper after CG.. Went for Rochor Dou Hua today.. Yummy!!

Quite a busy week ahead... Activities line up for the week:
Thur - Interview at EDB
Fri - Helping out for Extreme Sports at Sentosa
Sat - Church!
Sun - Guitar crash course with JM
Next Mon - Psychometric test at MINDEF/ getting results!!
Next Tue to Thur - Youth conference!!!
Next Fri - Break (hopefully =P)
Next Sat - Church!!
Next Sun - Popiah session cum VJChoir gathering at Jac's place

Woah!! Busy busy busy.......

posted by XY @ 11:37 PM

Been a LONG day..

Went for interview at ACRA which is at Tanjong Pagar in the morning.. then after that went home (Sengkang) for lunch and then headed for the Airport to send SK off in the afternoon... which is then followed by prayer meeting in church which is in the west.. travelled all over the island juz in one day!! tired... =P

But meeting up with SK really made my day.. it's always nice to catch up with old friend (I mean long time friend.. not literally old.. blehz) He's someone that I really enjoy being with.. I can let my hair down and be myself when I am with him.. and he never fails to be soooo encouraging.. life is definitely better with friends like him!!

Shall go do my quiet time soon.. made a promise with SK that we are gonna keep each other in prayer everyday!!

posted by XY @ 11:05 PM

Praise the Lord!!!!!!!!

I passed my interview at EDB!!! They've called to arrange for the final round of interview this Thursday.. They are really efficient ppl.. I left EDB at almost 4pm and within 2 hours they call to arrange the next round!! *GRINZ*

posted by XY @ 6:37 PM

Sigh... didn't really perform well for the EDB interview today.. the presentation part.. I was staggering all the way man.. sigh... juz hope that they are at least interested in the ideas that I suggested (they seem to be)and that would offset my poor performance for the presentation..

Anyway it's not time to feel sad over my lousy performance today.. got another interview tmr.. better make sure I do well!!

Will be seeing LW on Wed for tea.. at least there's something to look forward to huh.. ^^

posted by XY @ 4:24 PM

The past two days have been highly happening..

Let's start from what was going on at Phillip.. after temp-ing for 2 days, the manager suddenly dished out the letter of offer with only 1 day for me to decide.. but the offer was BAD.. the pay is bad.. the hour is bad.. the workload is bad.. In fact when I saw the letter of offer I couldn't even put a smile on my face.. coz I know that taking up the offer means giving up alot of time to do things I like.. church stuff.. staying in touch with family and friends.. etc etc..

While I was back at work with half my mind thinking if I should take up the offer, the HR lady from EDB called and asked me for a second interview next mon, which was soon followed by a call from the person-in-charge from the department that I applied to give me information on what to prepare for the next round..

By then my heart was no longer with Phillip I guess.. I suppose I don't want I life that is 100% devoted to my job.. there are many things in life that one should experience.. and more than that I don't want a job that take me so much time that I don't have time for God.. Well I suppose with this in heart God'll provide something else for me..

Well true enough.. this morning's campus interview for MINDEF went well.. and after the interview I got a call from ACRA for interview next tues.. so I'll be occupied til mid of next week!!

Hope I'll hear from MHA soon as well.. Meanwhile is some time for me to do things I like and have a good rest.. which I think I'm deserving of after mugging so hard the past 2 1/2 years..

posted by XY @ 5:17 PM

I've survived thru my day 1 as an analyst at Phillip..

Actually I'm just working there as temporary staff.. though the senior fund manager seems very keen on hiring me, but the big boss is still very reserved about the offer...

Anyway I think what I've gone thru today is nothing like the real work.. coz I juz sat there and do credit analysis for three companies... that's all..

Nevertheless.. I still walked out of the office at 6.40pm...

And I was told that I'll be given ALOT to do if I were offered a permanent position and will be expecting longer working hours.. sounds scary...

Will see how it goes from here...

posted by XY @ 8:08 PM

"Is life fair?"

This is one of the questions I got at the interview at EDB.. Have they run out of things to ask or what??

Anyway was surprise to see some much older ppl there going for the interview.. seriously dunno how are my chances for the job.. they say they'll call by the end of the week... will see how..

Starting work at Phillip tmr.. not the best time to start work when STI dropped 55 points today... scary... wonder if I'll be able to take the stress as an analyst..

posted by XY @ 6:16 PM

Hmmm.. still feeling kinduv upset.. wanted to speak to Ben but then again he's busy.. sigh.. can't blame him I guess.. but sometimes I wonder if we'll end up like strangers when he comes back again..

Anyway my consolation from LW.. apparently she's having fun in Cairns and this is what she wrote in her blog:

"we went to d nite mkt again..n i bought d yellow plates! haha got something for ting n xy..wahahahhaha....;p"

Shall wait and see what she has for me.. but I'll have to wait for another week before LW and Shu come back.. getting really bored already..

posted by XY @ 8:04 PM

Haven't been feeling THIS domestic for a long long while.. made guo1 tie1 for my family for lunch today.. picked this up from YX and his dad years back.. improving over the years.. at the very least the "skin" of the guo1 tie1 no longer taste like one lump of flour.. hee hee..

Was in NTU library yesterday.. to mass print resume and photocopy certificates coz it's cheaper there.. juz as I stepped out of the library when I got everything done, I was feeling almost sad.. the reality of me being a student no more had finally hit me.. 1 week after my exam.. no more running around campus with my books and notes.. no more insisting to go to canteen to buy tea when I'm already late for class.. no more looking at cute ang mo exchange students in lectures.. no more cheap thrill of skipping morning lectures.. no more la-teh-ing with Shu and LW in canteen.. no more chatting with YX in comp lab/S4 staircases/roof top.. something I've been doing all my life is suddenly a history..

Not quite sure where I am heading from here.. being an analyst at Phillip and be overworked? working as a policy executive at MHA and write boring speeches for ministers? going EDB and try to get funding for start-ups? more interviews and waiting to come before my "?" can turn into a "!"...

posted by XY @ 2:14 PM

My sun-burnt skin is starting to fall like snow flakes.. and it is so slow that there are patches on my face and it gets a little irritating.. so I decided the best way to get ride of it once and for all is to go for another swim.. to make sure the half-dead skin cells die completely.. it's like the chinese saying yi3 du2 gong1 du2.. haha..

I dreamt of him last nite.. not a good sign.. i guess i'm getting so bored that i dream of such boliao thing in my dream.. should be fine when i start work next week..

Ok... shall go and cook something for lunch.. feeling hungry now after the long swim in the morning..

posted by XY @ 1:35 PM

Ok thank God my last min birthday surprise for LW worked out fine.. she's having holiday in Sydney now so I got Ben to send flowers to her.. everything was very very last min but thank God the flowers did reach her hands.. Really thankful to Ben and Shu for making this happen.. =)

Juz that there was a minor problem... it was a bouquet of lilies.. LW is never a lily person... perhaps I never made it clear that it should be roses.. my fault really.. and Ben had already been a nice person to go all the way to send the bouquet despite his busy schedule and all that.. but whatever it is she's still quite happy over the surprise.. *phew*

I still looks like a lobster now from the sun-burn and it is PAINFUL!!! getting from bad to worse... boo hoo...

posted by XY @ 12:00 AM

EDB has granted me an interview!!! PTL!!!

Was really really surprised when they called.. coz they actually called during my exam period for a phone interview.. I was half way thru my mugging at home and was totally caught offguard.. and I thought I was blabbering rubbish throughout the conversation and I sounded like an idiot.. and they are actually asking me to go for a formal interview with them!! If this is not miracle, I dunno what it is..

Well the interview would clash with my temp job at Phillip.. then again the 2 offices are actually in the same building.. perhaps could ask my boss at Phillip to let me off for an hour or two for the interview..

Will see how it goes.. =P

posted by XY @ 12:55 PM

I look like a lobster now.. bad sun-burn from the swim this morning.. and it's so so so painful on my arms and shoulders now... *ouch*

I suppose I'll start peeling tmr...

Was at John's friend's steamboat restaurant for dinner today.. it's like free dinner in exchange for being tv extra for their advertisement... anyway all i needed to do was juz to eat steamboat and look happy.. which was easy with chen and audrey and john ard cracking lame jokes.. and the steamboat was good i muz say...yummy...

Gonna go watch VCD liao... ciaoz..

posted by XY @ 11:38 PM

Bye bye LW & Shu... who's gonna be leaving for aussie for holiday in an hour's time...

Bye bye YX... who's already left for HK...

Looks like it's gonna be a boring week ahead... sigh...

posted by XY @ 6:51 PM

Ok... looks like blogger is working alright again....

Yesterday was great... went KTV with the VJChoir gang at Cha Ren Zhi Jia... quite a good turnout actually... 10 of us... I guess this is the record for our KTV sessons... and it was so fun!! the gang never fails to go hysterical at KTV... and not forgetting the repertoire of Sun Yanzi/Liang Jingru/duets...

Great to see that we are still great friends after so many years out of JC... and we still can have fun the crazy way like how it used to be in school... brings back lotsa fond memories of JC days... afterall it's the love for singing that brought us together... and it's great now we still can sing together!

Today is Mothers' Day... gonna have a Mothers' Day cum my mum's birthday celebration sometime soon but not today... anyway I still bought her favourite egg tarts on the way home... at this famous shop that sell egg tarts fresh from the oven... had to queue for it somemore... but then good things are worth waiting for.... and as long it can make my mum happy a little waiting is worth it... ^^

posted by XY @ 8:57 PM

Sigh... something wrong with blogger again... my background doesn't show... and there's nothing wrong with my image host..... =(

posted by XY @ 10:47 PM

Exam's over!!!!! I'm outta school!!! Hurray!!!!

Anyway was at Phillip this evening... I'm going to temp there for a week starting from 17 May... it's gonna be a trial period to see if I'm suitable and if I like it there... thought that there's no harm trying... can earn abit of money as well and kill boredom.. meanwhile I'm not tied down from taking other offer... so decided to give it a shot...

Think I can be an electrician if I can't find a job... I accidentally tripped over the modem wire and pulled one of the wire connecting the telephone wire port loose... managed to fix it back... quite proud of my achievement... hahaha....

Tmr I'm gonna go KTV with the VJChoir gang... Yay!!! It's been ages since I last went KTV with them... Super excited!!!! *jump around like mad woman*

posted by XY @ 9:52 PM

My nose is going to drop off soon... real soon.... *_*

posted by XY @ 7:12 PM

Juz when I thought this is the only semester that I didn't fall sick in between examz, I got this nasty flu since this morning... used up half a box of tissue already.... block nose so bad that I can only breathe thru my mouth... can hardly get anything done in such a stage when I have to stop doing whatever on hand every half a min to blow my nose.... productivity level has plunged towards zero.... Sigh........

posted by XY @ 12:56 PM

There are alot of weird ppl in the mugging area... went for lunch juz now and saw this guy talking on his handphone outside when I was on my way out... and he's still talking on the phone when I came back from lunch...

And there's this junior girl that I don't really like within my sight right now... I guess u can't blame me for disliking her... coz even her cousin (who's a friend of mine) dislikes her... but that's not the point... the point is: her presence here in the comp lab irritates me... hope that she'll go away real soon....

And there are loads of other things that irritate me at the moment: the rain, the freezing cold air-con in comp lab, the boring financial modelling notes, the MSN and ICQ that are not working...

Side track a little... bumped into Da Bao this morning at the exam hall... she told me that she quited choir ministry... and the next thing she told me is that she's attached to one of the choir IC... haha... weird things do happen.... and isn't it a wonder that she actually got attached amidst final semester in school and Bible school?? Love always come knocking when it's least expected to come, isn't it??

posted by XY @ 2:17 PM

Best... even the MSN and ICQ in comp lab are not working...

I foresee that I'll just be bored to death alone here in the comp lab this afternoon....

posted by XY @ 12:34 PM

Sigh... another rainy day....

And everyone's finished their examz... everyone's out there having fun... except me....

Here I am trying to mug for my financial modelling paper... the comp lab is almost empty... the reading opposite is roughly the same... a few smokers trying to get a puff outside on the corridor... yah the number to smokers there is directly proportional to how have the rain is..

My rainy day blue is blowing up like the asset bubble in E. Asia... it'll burst soon.... soon.......

posted by XY @ 12:29 PM

Tony Parsons on Love

This is from "Man and Boy" by Tony Parsons:

"Love is what's left when being in love has gone. It's when you care about someone and you hope they're happy, but you are not under any illusions about them. Maybe that kind of love is not exciting and passionate and all those things that fade with time. All those things that you are keen on. But in the end it's the only klind of love that really matters.

"But you have to learn to let go. That's part of it, isn't it? Part of what it means to love someone. To really love someone. If you love someone then you don't just see them as an extension of yourself. You don't just love them for what's in it for you. Love means knowing when to let go."

I don't know what these words mean to other ppl... but these words mean a great deal to me... but isn't it so true?? coz while letting go isn't easy, sometimes it's necessary... sometimes it hurts to let go even though u know it's for a good cause... sometimes u may even get misunderstood while letting go... but when u see that ur loved one doing well when u let go, all the rest do not matter anymore...

p.s.: changed the template for my blog... finally...
p.p.s.: my optical mouse juz died... R.I.P.

posted by XY @ 8:17 PM

Totally unproductive from dinner time til now... sigh... been zhuo-bo-ing around and degrading to the point that I actually played those online flash games for an hour... No mood to mug at all... this is bad... very very bad....

Almost finish reading "Man and Boy" by Tony Parsons... it's really a great read... can hardly imagine a man writing a novel that's so full of tenderness and straight from the heart... but Parsons did it... it's a story about this thirty year old man and his relationships with people around him... his (ex-)wife, his son, his father,etc etc... many times reading the book makes me laugh out loud or causes tears in my eyes... one of the best read I had in a few years...

Don't think I wanna mug anymore for tonite... Don't wanna go crazy this young (ha... young... maybe not so young... bumped into Rosa yesterday and I told her I'm in service 2 and she went "why are u still in YOUTH service?!?")

Continue stoning.......

posted by XY @ 10:27 PM

I am bored I am bored I am bored I am bored I am BORED...

posted by XY @ 8:53 PM

Been pretty productive today... covered half the topics for financial modelling before lunch today...

Juz came back from lunch and a little bit of grocery shopping with my mum at Compass Point... the place is flooded with ppl on sunday... scarily crowded... worse still with kids running around... my poor toes got stepped over by a kid and rolled over by a shopping cart... =(

Anyway went down to Esplanade to support Pastor Sun for some May Day concert last night... followed by a super late dinner at Lau Pat Sa... It's been quite a while since we last went down town together... in fact I think this is the first time since Ben left for Sydney... miss those days when we used to go down to City Hall area for coffee and chit chat after service...

There was also this firework display at the end of the May Day concert... it's those everything-shoot-together-in-a-mess type of firework... quite a waste of taxpayers' money I think... and to think that I'm gonna start to make my contribution to this type of firework from next year onward... blehz...

Back to mugging... Binomial Option Pricing and Black-Schole Option Pricing... =P

posted by XY @ 3:50 PM