Thursday, November 27, 2003

Been super busy the past few days.... all tied up by my thesis... research work is really tough!! sorting of data/ spreadsheets alone is back-breaking... think I'm going to spoil the mouse soon....

My friend sent me something about the month u r born in and ur character... think the part about my character is super accurate!! Here Goes:

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when
restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Showing anger easily. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Spendthrift. Learns to show emotions.

So so so accurate.... especially the part on "Rebellious when restricted", "Too sensitive and easily hurt" and "Romantic on the inside not outside"...

I think not many ppl out there know the soft side of me.... yah ppl think that I'm emotionally strong and independent.... that's only a small fraction of who I am..... or rather, a misperception of me...

Sunday, November 23, 2003

Waiting...

Lazy sunday afternoon... so so so hot out there u don't feel like going anywhere... juz wanna luah at home... but on the other hand I feel very "under utilized" just luah-ing around... so here I am crapping again....

Hmmm I think what I'm gonna talk about next will offend like 80% of the Singapore population.. but I don't really care... coz I think it's the truth and nothing but the truth....

Singaporeans love to be late... for their dates, their wedding dinners and every other occassion under the sun (and the moon too).. It's a totally different culture from where I came from... Now not that I'm going to demand the entire Singapore society to change, but I juz wanna bring in another point of view about this issue, one that perhaps very few people ever think of...

For people who really know me, they would probably know that waiting for those habitual latecomers is among the top 5 things that I hate most.. But few people really know why I hate it so much..

It's really not about the time wasted while waiting.. What upsets me the most when my friends and loved ones are late is that all of a sudden I realise I am of such little value in their heart. When you are going to meet SM Lee Kuan Yew, will you be late?? NO! Coz he's perceived as an important person and you don't want him to wait.. Likewise for your friends and loved one.. If you think that they are important to you, and you really treasure them, would you want them to wait for 15 min, half an hour, or even an hour?? I wouldn't!! I would be more than eager to see them!!

Yah of course I know it's unreasonable to expect people to turn up punctually all the times.. At times expressways jam up coz of traffic accidents and NEL has problems and so on.. I am speaking of people who are habitually late over here.. Come on, Singapore is such a small island, the transports system is so much better than many other places. If you really bother to plan ahead and make an effort to be at least on time, if not early, you can't be late all the time!

I feel most loved by people who is always there waiting for you even when you are five minutes early. It's feel awesome that the people you treasure treasure you in the same way.

Don't make your loved one wait for you anymore..


Friday, November 21, 2003

Childhood Memories

Was chatting with my FYP partner today about our childhood memories and we came to a conclusion that we remember very little about our first 3 years, and out of what we remember, most are unpleasant, scary and frightening events.. this is completely contrary to the well-known pyschology concept of rosy retrospect...

How ironic..

Like for me, my earliest memory is that afternoon when I was two years old.. my mum went to the provision shop to get some grocery and left me and my sis at home.. at that time we stayed on the fourth floor while my granny stayed on the sixteen floor in the same block.. my sis decided to play hide and seek with me, so she went to hide at my granny's place.. I was left all alone at home for a long long time before my mum came back.. it felt like forever.. and I was so afraid that I cried and cried.... yah, that's the oldest memory that remains...

Had a swim with June and Cecilia yesterday.. these 2 crazy girls kept swimming and swimming.. then in the end I also swam at least 20 laps.. now my whole body is aching..... *boohoo*

Thursday, November 20, 2003

To Be Loved...

We all wanna be loved.. Nothing beats the warm and fuzzy feeling of knowing that someone really care for you and is there for you no matter what..

But how many people give much thought about how to respond to being loved?? When your friends, your family members, your loved ones shower their love towards you, have you ever belittle their acts of love and simply take them for granted??

Think about this: When you are down and someone is there by your side, have you ever throw your temper and tell him/her to leave you alone?? When someone offer to help out of sincerity, do you reject the offer simply because you have little faith in that person’s capability?? When a loved one wanna spend some quality time with you, do you just shrugged it off coz you are tired after a long day or simply coz you are lazy to go out??

The list of nasty things that we do goes on…

To be honest, I do behave like that at times.. I’m only human and I’m imperfect.. To love and be loved, I am to learn.. And perhaps, keep on learning for life..

Juz My Two Cents Worth

Here I am on my new blog.. gonna share some of my personal feelings and thoughts over here.. well, u may agree with what I say, u may disagree.. u may like it, u may not, but that's MY perspective of things..

Just my two cents worth..