Little Miss Dreamer

I guess it's about time for me to face to REAL me..

After withdrawing myself from the world and stay home for 2 weekends (apart from the drinking sessions on Fridays) to do some soul searching, I've come to realise something...

I'm a pessimist...

Well.. I guess I'm born a pessimist... all these years I've been trying very hard to pretend that I'm not... I've been trying to put up a strong front no matter what happens... but that's really not the true me... and I suppose I'll be alot happier if I recognize that I'm a pessimist and just follow my heart in the things I do instead of behaving in a so-called rational manner but against my feeling..

Life is tough and I shouldn't make it tougher for myself...

posted by XY @ 10:35 PM

I didn't know you hated me THIS much.. it's been a good 6 months before I saw your entire entry cursing me for telling L what you wrote.. and you sounded so righteous huh?? oh pls you know very well that she reads your blog! even if I didn't say a word she would have still read it!! come on who was the one who ruined the whole thing?? who was the one that wasted all my effort going to her hostel every other day to make sure everything is fine with her even though I was soooo bloody stressed up by school work and was gonna hang myself any moment??? how can u just push all the blame to me saying that I ruined your friendship when you were the one who disclose other ppl's secret and even allow your so-called friend to make nasty comments?? yup sure you can go ahead and make whateva comments you want just keep it to ppl on your side and I won't even care.. why do you have to put it there on your blog when you know very well she will see it?? now who's the childish and immature one?? oh pls I have enough of your nonsense!! why do you have to do things without using your brain and then expect everyone to tolerate your rubbish?? you've hurt me once and I put it behind.. you did it again to me and eventually I put it behind as well... but why do you have to hurt my dearest friend as well???? I wonder why I even bothered abt you when the whole world gave up hope on you.. only to get this kind of shit from you... I wish our paths had never crossed before.. and I am pretty sure that I will stay clear of you jerk in future...

posted by XY @ 12:04 AM

Worked til 8 plus yesterday and 9 plus tonite.. tired..... wonder how long can I last at this rate I'm working...

Managed to get hold of SK online last nite.. at long last.. apparently they had prob with Internet access eversince they've shifted to their new place and it was finally fixed last nite..

Tired... suppose to do call report... dun care liao shall leave it to tmr...

posted by XY @ 10:18 PM

RP called me up for an interview... went pretty well.. perhaps it'll be the chance I finally get to do what I want.. guess half my life I've been doing things that I am suppose to do rather than things that I wanna do.. things that ppl say I should do rather than things that I feel like doing.. hope this will be a chance for me to gain back some control over my life.. if I really go over to RP I guess everyone will be really shocked.. then again, do I really care abt what they say?

posted by XY @ 6:27 PM

Haiz... Someone's missing for a long long time...

Where are you??????????????????????

posted by XY @ 9:11 PM

Havent been blogging for a while... been so super busy lately... trying to clear my stuff b4 I go for my induction next week...

And I've been outta office alot lately.. MC on Tue.. The entire Wed morning was at EDB's Mid Year Review.. This morning was at MTI National Day Observance Ceremony.. and gonna go China Jump tmr afternoon for EDB Idols!! Oh man.. work's piling up on my desk...

Been helping to "train" the intern boys up for EDB Idols these few days.. they r forming a boy band call 7788... hope they'll win tmr... coz i think they r really entertaining...

*Yawn* wanna sleep already... Zzzz....

posted by XY @ 11:25 PM